"making decisions in love are tough. u may not
know what will happen next. after setting the
person free, suddenly you misses him.. all the
good times you had with him before are all coming
back....wishing him to come back. too bad, you don't
have him anymore... he's too far to be reached..
nowhere to be found... you have nothing to do but
suffer having cold nights alone.... you have to
accept that he's not yours anymore :("
-   courtesy of j-ann's blog

I got this quote a few weeks ago from my friend j-ann's blog. i got this for no reason at all. i saved it on my documents... i don't know that after sometime i'm going to read it again and this time around, i can sort of relate to it... this is exactly what i am feeling right now, though i am not wishing that we'd be back in each other's arms again... all i am hoping right now, is for the friendship to remain... i hope the two of us have no bad feelings for each other. i don't know why suddenly all my anger melted away... Last Monday, I was really feeling soOoo mad.... tuesday ,i was feeling soOoo lonely... came wednesday, my loeliness was in a medium level, came thursday, i was really feeling bad and i sort of miss him soOO much... don't know why but I felt likei needed to clear some issues tohim and i need to talk to him, to know if he is okay... am i stupid? probably... last tuesday, the gospel was about the disciples asking Jesus how many times we should forgive and Jesus was trying toteach us that we should forgive many times.. Jesus really love us because no matter how bad we are he still forgivesus for our sins.... that is what you call TRUE love.... agapeor unconditional love... weshould not love somebody because of this or that,if and only if... we should love to the extent of what Jesus taught us and that is to love inspite of each other's weaknesses and faults... that is why i bow down to my parents and i salute them for the length of years they have been together... i salute them for the times they have understood each other's faults and weaknesses... last february 20, they celebrated the 23rd year of their boy-girl friend relationship... and i got touched by my dad's words. He told me that even until now mom still the most beautiful woman for him and as time goes by, her feelings for mommy goes deeper and deeperI hope God prepared someone like my dad for me...